Big ultrasound tomorrow

Warning: stereotypes and generalizations follow.
Tomorrow morning we have our big 20 week ultrasound and appointment. I'm so excited. I care more about the gender this time than I did before, maybe because we are definitely only having 2 children. The weird thing is that I can't say the gender outcome will determine my happiness one way or the other, but I know the gender makes a difference.

I'm prepared for a boy. I have cute room decor picked out for a boy (airplanes), I have a son already and know the boy routine, and I would love for Evan to have a baby brother to grow up with. I think siblings of the same gender might be closer (or have the potential to be closer). And besides, boys love their mommies.

But a girl... I don't have one of those. This is good and bad. When I found out Evan was a boy, my first thought was, "what will I do with a boy? Do I have to get dirty and play with bugs?" (That concern quickly ended when a work friend told me girls also get dirty and play with bugs). But now I have the same familiar feeling: if I have a girl, what will I do with her? I am in boy mode now. I can't imagine it any other way.

But if I don't have a girl, I might always wonder what it's like to have a girl. And plus, there is one thing that really bothers me in the back of my head: boys marry off, and girls stick around. Let me explain: Boys grow up to be men, get married, and join their wives' families for the holidays and other social gatherings. Women bring their hubbies into their own families. Yes, I'm stereotyping again, but 92.6% of the people I know would agree with me if polled informally. I can't stand the thought of holidays without my full family.

So the bottom line is, there is a difference, and I'll be happy either way. If it's a boy, I have to focus extra hard on having the best holidays ever so he can't help but return every year (do I sound like an obsessed and elderly Martha Stewart? Oh well). If it's a girl, I'll readjust my thinking to girl mode and prepare for the unknown.